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“Yes.”
I want to be alone...
So you don’t have to see me break
So you don’t have to watch me snap at every little thing
So you don’t have to hear me cry
I want to be alone...
So you won’t have to see that look in my eye
So you won’t have to find the despair hiding in my pupils
So you won’t have to cringe as I yearn for the boy of frost to finally come
“Are you sure?”
“...yes.”
I don’t want to be alone...
So I won’t have to fear of what I might do
So I won’t have to hide in my room, hoping you won’t come home early to find me like this
So I won’t have to remember what I lost
I don’t want to be alone...
So I don’t have to hope and hope for someone to come along
So I don’t have to wait anymore
So I don’t have to wait for the boy of frost anymore
I still hope... I still pray...
That maybe he’ll finally come along
That maybe he’ll make it snow
That maybe he’ll be able to make me laugh
To smile a true smile
That maybe... I can see him after all
If you’re somehow able to read this for whatever reason
If you can... Help, please
If you can... I don’t want to feel like this anymore
I don’t want to feel broken
I don’t want to feel lost
I don’t want to feel alone
A story I wrote...
You had indeed helped me
Helped me see past the darkness
Helped me escape my scars and my shell
Helped me see what it truly means to live life
To hold someone’s hand
To feel someone’s touch
To have someone’s love
And no, I’m not being bitter about love again
I just want a connection
I just want to see you
I just want to touch you
I just want...
I don’t want to be alone
am I getting a little desperate now?
I mean ive written something almost every day now cause all of a sudden everythings complete shit in my mind for whatever reason
is it because its cold now...? I hope not. ive been waiting for the cold to come back ever since it left.
I want to be able to see jack...am I crazy for that? I never thought so..but am I for wanting it in a desert of all places?
even when im not physically alone, I still feel like I am. I cant talk to anyone about it because they wouldn't understand. my friends say I can tell them anything, but I cant even begin to explain all this. one: itd take too long. and two: theyd probably think I was going crazy after all
idk...writing doesn't help, going on a walk doesn't help, and thinking aout jack or watching the movie just makes me want to see him even more...ugh im hopeless