Failure

I see you when I close my eyes
You’re here
You’re there
You’re everywhere

You’re smiling, yet not.  You’re far away and I can’t touch you.  I can’t speak to you.
Because you’re not really there
You’re a ghost
But I still see you.  In the darkness of my dreams.  It’s the only way to find you.

They gave me a way to bring you back.  It was a dream, but I wanted it to be real.  There was a way to bring you back.

The darkness said I had to do something.  Something I wouldn’t normally do.  It’s been so long since that dream, I can’t remember what it was anymore.

Did I do it?  Yes
But did I do it right?

The darkness said I had done wrong.  You were slipping away, back into its cold clutches.  You were all alone back there and I could do nothing.  I was useless.

I AM USELESS.

The darkness gave me a way to bring you back.
And I failed.